Kristene Kaye Brown
You are at the Midwest Cancer Care Center
a catheter tube into an infinity knot,
un-loop. I am there
too, there in the fevered folds of that night-
there in the morning when every muscle
becomes a lit
terminal, there at midnight when you ask
who will be there
to greet you as sister, daughter. In the end
the medicine will work.
The nausea will subside. This much is true.
when you piss it will smell like chemicals,
your mouth metal.
The orphaned beat of your heart will ring
in your ears
for weeks. This is normal. Lay back down.
You already know
there are only two possible outcomes.
Either you will be fine
or you won’t.
KRISTENE KAYE BROWN is a mental health social worker. She earned her MFA from Vermont College of Fine Arts. Her work has previously been published, or is forthcoming, in DIAGRAM, Columbia Poetry Review, Harpur Palate, Meridian, Nashville Review, and others. Kristene lives and works in Kansas City.